My Internal Narrative

I was about 26 years old when I first realized the narrative of my internal thoughts has an audience. Not like a comedy club audience. But rather, when I think I imagine myself speaking to someone ... a friend, client, lover.

From time to time I've thought of keeping a journal, to focus my narrative inward. I find that my thoughts are most clear when the audience for my narrative is me and me alone.

This blog has accomplished that shift, at least as relates to comedy. When I come off stage these days I immediately begin thinking, "what will I write about this show?"

Writing here helps me find the lessons that are there to be learned. And I've noticed I'm less likely to seek or need perspective or validation from outside sources.

It's ironic the consequence of the extroverted act of blogging is the introversion of my thoughts. It has helped me become more self-sufficient and self-aware.

This is a very good thing.